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Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.
But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did — but, for the things we didn’t do. Things we didn’t say that could’ve save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that’s headed their way.
Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Why is it that when all is said and done, that’s when we face regret? Why is it that when we can’t do anything anymore, when there’s nothing left to do but face facts, that’s when we feel regret?

Why is it that when everything is gone, after saying you have no regrets in life, you finally accept that you regret this.

The biggest form of regret comes from the things we didn’t say or do. What we did say can always be taken back, but what we never did.. Well let’s just say that everybody does deserve a second chance, but not everyone gets one.

But not everything in life is perfect. That’s just not how it works. Regret exists, look it up, it’s in the dictionary. If only it wasn’t.. Then maybe we could all live happily ever after.

This entry isn’t just about “love”. It’s about life. Everything. Whether it’s that project you didn’t pass back in high school which caused you to fail, or that guy you bumped into and was rude to who turned out to be your math instructor.

It’s about thinking and realizing those small details that you could’ve done that would’ve changed something in the future.

If you had just gotten up 5 minutes earlier today then maybe your professor didn’t have to send you to Admissions Office to get a slip where you bumped into this person you hated which totally ruined your day which caused you not to socialize with your friends which made them think you were mad at them which made you annoyed which distracted you through out the day making you fail your English test.

See how one small, tini tiny detail in your life make such an enormous change.

If only — must be the two saddest words in the world.

But that’s the thing about life. No matter how messed up things become, we have to get up and keep moving forward. We can get left behind, get hooked on the past that’s just gonna keep us from getting to something much better.

There’s always that door for us waiting to be opened unquestionably. Everything happens for a reason. We must always remember that.

I don’t believe in “meant to be”. Being “meant to be there” or “mean to do this”. I believe that we’re “supposed to”. Like, “we’re supposed to be there” or “we’re supposed to do this”.

See the difference?

Well, no matter how hard the struggle or difficult the challenge, how high the climb, we have to do it. We have to get there somehow.

Don’t let your mistakes from your past hold you back.

Learn to let go and leave things behind. Learn to accept your mistakes.. Your regrets.

Never forget that life goes on, and so should we.


“Don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space.”
Janet Fitch, White Oleander

“I guess the whole point of it all is that we never know really”
Jason Mraz, The Dynamo of Volition

“Can’t help it if there’s no one else”
Taylor Swift, Hey Stephen

“I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairytale.”
Taylor Swift, White Horse

“The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.”
Taylor Swift, Tear Drops On My Guitar

Anna: Why do relationships have to be so hard?
Peyton: Cause the only thing harder is being alone.
One Tree Hill

“People that are meant to be together always find their ways in the end.”
Brooke Davis, OTH

“People always leave, but sometimes they come back.”
Peyton Sawyer, OTH

“But if you’re always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, and you always find ’em, then I guess at some point maybe you should let go and give your heart what it deserves.”
Lucas Scott, OTH

“The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won’t be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.”
Whitey Durham, OTH

“At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes… all you need is one.”
Peyton Sawyer, OTH

“I thought I knew you. But I guess it’s easier to see what we want than to look for the truth. You think you know me but you don’t. And that means you don’t know what I can do. You see me as someone popular and has all the answers but that’s not true. I may not always know what I’m doing but I’ll try to make things better. And when I make a mistake, because face it, we all do, I promise I’ll ask for your help. I can’t do this alone, but if you’ll take a chance on me, we can do great things together. I promise if you believe in me, I’ll find the courage to reach for your every dream. John F. Kennedy said, “the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures. And that is the basis of all morality”.”
Brooke Davis, OTH

“I’ll still be here, and if it’s meant to be, we’ll be together.”
Jake Jaglielski, OTH

“Remember when i told you what girls want? Girls just want someone to want them back- at least I do.”
Brooke Davis, OTH

“If it’s not meant to be, it simply won’t happen.”

“You can’t get all caught up in something that’s not going to happen. You got to hold on to the next best thing.”
Theresa, The OC

“It’s not like, like now that me and Anna broke up I’m now choosing you. Because the whole reason we broke up is because of me. It’s always been you Summer. It’s just always been you. I tried to fight it and I tried to deny it. And I can’t, I can’t do it, you’re undeniable. ”
Seth Cohen (to Summer Roberts), The OC

Ryan about Marissa: We’ll just go back to being friends.
Seth: When were you ever friends?
The OC

“There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer, no disease that enough love will not heal, no door that enough love will not bridge, no wall that enough love will not throw down, no sin that enough love will not redeem… It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble, how hopeless the outlook, how muddled the tangle, how great the mistake. A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all. If only you could love enough, you could be the happiest and most powerful being in the world.”
Emmet Fox

This was something I wrote back when I was a senior in high school.

Almost Closing Time
Jan 20, ’08 4:52 PM
Today’s the 20th of January, tomorrow’s Optimus’s birthday : ) And from now, it’s about two months and 10 days ’till we take our own different paths….. apart. You have to admit, it’s pretty hard to let go of something you’ve been holding on to for four years.

Our batch had so many trials and experiences to face. All those, we faced together. That’s why our batch is OPTIMUS. We are ultimate. Every new beginnning comes from some other beginnings end. The ultimate can survive this world, even apart. That’s what makes us so ultimate. And I guess it’s time to accept. We can’t hold on forever, otherwise we’re holding ourselves back from oppurtinities that are better. God has a plan for all of us, He’ll find a way to bring us all back together. We had errs that we fixed, we had problems that we faced, we had gaps that mended, and more importantly, we had fun : )

We’re gonna take our own paths soon, but we should never forget the stuff about high school. The friends, the experiences. High school is like, a marker of our lives. It’s one of the most important stages or levels of life, of growing up. In high school, everything becomes clearer, you find out who you really wanna be, you find out how the outside world really is, you find out how people really act. It’s a stepping stone, it’s the beginning of growing up. But in between growing up, there’s always room for acting like a baby : )

High school’s been great, i don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t enroll in that school. That school’s taught me so much things, and i’ve achieved so much. I have to admit, it’s kinda scary thinking of college. Here in high school i’ve got everything planned out, I know who my enemies are, I know how to fight them. I know who my friends are, it’s hard to find a bunch like them. I know who I like, I know who I hate. I know what’s cool here, I know what’s lame. Here in high school, I know who I am, i’ve been a success. I’m good at “high school”. In college, I have to start all over again. It’s scary, cause it won’t be the same, there are new techniques to learn. But I guess that’s life, adapting, learning, accepting, being challenged.

Well, let’s face the days ahead together Optimus. If the person who’s reading this isn’t part of Optimus, you’re probably wondering who I am. Well, i’m Hannah Mercado, i’ve got high school pretty planned out. Everybody knows me, I know pretty much a lot here. And it’s almost time to go back to the drawing board.

I also have one message for you, about life: “Life goes on, and so should we” : )

Inspiration comes at the oddest times, usually when you least expect it. When it does come, don’t shrug it off… be inspired!

Jerry Grant Blakeney

What really invigorated me to coin such a blog? Let’s face it. A blogger thinks. A blogger has emotions. Either s/he is indubitably happy or glad, or unquestionably sad or confused.

A blogger has either experienced something life changing (good or bad) or wants to experience something life changing. A blogger shares his/her emotions to people. A  blogger expresses him/herself.

Blogging is fun. It’s a cool way to admit what you’re feeling, personally. Of course a blog can also be used to advertise products, companies, and the like.

What inspired you to start a blog? What inspired me?

I guess sadness is what inspired me. But like what my good friend, Tyler, told me “It’s hard to continue your stories if you’re not sad anymore.” Or it was something like that.. He said the stories would be different. Well maybe that’s what I need. One day, maybe I’ll check out my old posts, see how different they are from the present ones. Hopefully, a year from now, the tone of the posts would be different. Today, bitterness and sorrow and pain and anger and melancholy and forlorn and downcast and despair. Tomorrow, an intoxicating feeling of happines, heaven, a sight of blue skies.

I admit, I am sad. I am not happy nor am I thankful. It is more painful to feel sorrow when it is sudden. Like when a friend suddenly dies from a car crash. Just five minutes ago you were on the phone with her. Later that day, you find out she was hit and run by a car. So suddenly, somebody was taken from you.

No, no one died. I did not lose anyone that way. It was a mere paragon of how a “sudden” taste of sadness feels. Because it happens so sudden, the pain we feel is multiplied many many times.

One minute you are happy. The next, you feel like jumping off the Twin Towers.. luckily, those are gone.

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

–Third Eye Blind, Jumper

No, I do not want to kill myself, silly. I am sad, not depressed. You do not need to send me to rehab.

It’s just that this sudden emotion came out of no where, it took me by surprise, caught me off guard.

I have learned my lesson. Even when you are on Cloud 9, be prepared to fall. Eventually, clouds part, too. They loosen up, so be ready for the great, painful fall.

The other day, I was reading a blog about you. I was thinking to myself of how I felt sorry for the author. The pain she had felt, the sadness you had inflicted upon her.

I guess what goes around, comes around.

I am sorry. I am sorry I ever felt sorry for that author.

I am sure.. this blog is about you.

Sometimes we get inspiration from complete strangers. A simple glance from the eyes, a half-smile from their face. A message shown from a blog.

Hey Tyler. You inspired me to write this.

I lost $200,000 playing poker on FaceBook today. My summer’s all washed out. My heart was finally healed this summer.. Then it got crushed again. They all have summer school. I am alone, I am no one.

I now realize all the harshness of life. Yesterday, I felt right at home in my world. Now I feel lost. Watching the entire 5th season of Lost made me feel even more lost. They just got out of the island. Why on earth would they wanna go back?

Why? Cause they belong there. Three years had gone by. They were living their lives back in paradise. Jack was a doctor. Kate was a mom. Sayid was a construction worker. Sun was mom to be. Hurly was fat. They were all in heaven. John told them they had to come back to the island. It was the only way to save everybody else on it. Why? Cause that’s where they belong. I guess it was like they were part of the island. Maybe it was like taking a robot’s legs off. How else would it walk?
Despite the heavenly life of Jack, Kate, Sayid, Sun and Hurly, deep inside of them, I know they felt the presence of hell. Jack was alone. Kate wasn’t the real mother of her son. Sayid was living a lie. Sun didn’t have Jin. Hurly was considered nuts.

Deep inside they knew they weren’t happy. That’s why in the end, it wasn’t difficult to make them go back to the island. Even if they’d tell themselves they were happy, they knew they were not. That’s why they chose to go back. Even with all the lies, the secrets, the trouble.. they knew it was where they belonged.

Where on this earth do I belong? Where do you?

A sudden burst of confusion. Suddenly, I do not know what I want anymore.

Yesterday, I was so sure of everything. Now, I am lost.